Just Ramblings.......

So I couldn't sleep last night because I couldn't manage to get my brain to turn off...shocker I know considering I am go go go all the time. But since it has been 10 years since I have graduated high school, my reunion has came and went, I have been thinking of all the things that I have accomplished and what I had hoped to accomplish because when I was 18 I thought I had all the time in the world. Now no one has to feel compelled to read this or even comment on it, but I felt like I would feel better if I wrote it!

Accomplishments that I am proud of:

Married the love of my life, we have been together for 11 years and married almost 6 years, most of which have been the happiest years of my life, I just wish parenthood and marriage came with a guide book....lol.

Speaking of Parenthood, I had three unsuccessful pregnancies, and one pregnancy that resulted in the most beautfil little girl in the world, Kayla is the best thing that I have ever done in my life, I hope that we can have at least one more! (soon I hope)

Had a successful, rewarding, and extremely challenging career in the United States Marine Corps as a Military Police Officer, I miss it more and more everyday, but my family and marriage were the most important thing, so alas I am a civlian.

I have managed to go to college on and off and only have 6 classes left....almost done!

We have purchased our first home and made it ours! No more painting just new carpet, countertops in the kitchen and new windows and we are done!

I work for a company that appreciates me and rewards me for all of my hard work, which is what we all want in our jobs!

I have re-established a relationship with both of parents, I still have good days and bad days with them, but that is to be expected!

Regrets that I have so far:

Not staying at Barry University and finishing college with all of my friends and being able to have that piece of paper that I have been working toward for 10 years!

The three miscarriages that I have had, I have always told myself it was God's way of telling me that there wasn't something right with the situation to bring a baby into the world or something wrong with the baby, but it still doesn't make it any easier to deal with!

Getting out of the Marine Corps and not fighting longer and harder than the two years that I did to get them to fix my right knee and pay for the surgeries needed to fix it.....no cartlidge left it sucks!

Not staying in touch with my friends and family as well as I should , life does happen and we seem to go in different directions, I should try harder to be involved in their lives.

Realizing that I am not Super Mom,Super Wife, and Super Friend/Family Memeber, but that I exhaust myself trying to be all three!

That I am so stubborn and strong willed that I never ask for help when I really need it!-I am working on that though....I think most women are like this though, it seems to get worse when you become a parent!

I suppose that is all for now.....I just had to get that off my chest now maybe I can actually take a nap later and sleep comfortably instead of tossing and turning all the time! Love you all for reading this post!

Dressing Up Like Mommy

Notice the "pearl" necklace and shoes...she walks in them better than Mommy does, less distance to the floor if she falls down.



Notice she was trying really hard to put them on and the concentration! LOL :-)















Kayla has been really into dressing up lately. I was trying on my shoes for the Marine Corps Ball earlier this evening and she wanted to wear them, so I of course got the camera out! Becs I know that you will be excited two blogs in one day! That is a record for me! LOL.....

Halloween 2008

Kayla and her Mommy. I went as a witch, I loved the hat and so did Kayla, it was a lot of fun! I will keep it for next year too!



Kayla acting shy with "Prince Charming"



Kayla and her "Prince Charming" Daddy












Our Beautiful Cinderella, so is getting so big!



Kayla was so excited for week about Halloween, but unfortunately a few days before Halloween she got a stomach virus, you can't tell in these pictures that she felt bad, but she had been running a high fever and throwing up for two days. But we promised her if she felt better that she could go Halloweening as she calls it. We only went out for about an hour since she was sick and once it got colder in the evening she was done. She was so much fun though! Hope everyone had a great Halloween too!